God, please be with me as I move to make a transition for the upcoming months. Please guide me in my choices with food, time, and money. Send your Spirit to push me into a community of followers who will support me and give me wisdom from You. Help me to give love that You help me to understand through You, to others. Help me to be a better servant to my family and to my friends. I need You every day, in every moment. Please, help me to remember to ask and to also surrender all to You.
In Your Son's Holy and Powerful Name, Jesus,
In Your Son's Holy and Powerful Name, Jesus,
Amen.
Something has been going on lately. I've been made aware.
The past two weeks, I have been home on Christmas break from school. As blessed as the time has been with friends and family, I have not been feeling well again. The headaches, rough sleep, long days, and poor digestion have been dragging me down through all of it. I feel so tired of being sick. I've been sick for way too many years..and without real reason.
Through many encounters with different friends and relatives, I am learning a lot about how what I eat truly effects my body. At first, I thought I just needed to cut back on irritants like dairy and gluten (wheat) as well as processed, unhealthy things. Well, I have been doing that for the whole fall semester. I do feel better overall than past years, BUT there is still no positive change in my health! My teeth are falling apart in strength. My digestion is painful. My body aches. I get colds more frequently since the first one in November, like it just won't go away. And my skin, face, and nails just do not look healthy and vibrant like I feel on the inside sometimes. I'm losing steam...not all at once, but with each season of illness and each break from the busy life of work and school. Any time my body knows it can stop from the rush, it crashes. This cannot continue, or I fear when I am 30 I will be much worse off than now and less able to spend time to turn it all around.
This is my goal.
I would like to go on a no-candida(yeast free) diet over a span of three to however many months it takes to rid my body of all build up yeast storing inside my organs. In many websites and books you will find that yeast is normal and good, but we so seldom in America do not know how our habits quickly rise its amounts in our body. The effects of too much yeast can cause so many problems that it looks like simply "family-prone" issues like allergies, indigestion, recurring ear infections or sinus infections, poor skin health and it goes on and on. The big question for me is will anyone support me in this change?
Doctors are said not to be supportive because though the scientific research has been done, Medical schools have not been training in treating this problem after so many years of treating all of its side effects. Doctors are more like "treat and go" practitioners than holistic detectives for our health. I do thank my doctors for spending the last few years sending me in for hundreds of labs to try to solve my health problems, but the fact that they keep doing tests and keep getting normal results despite my never-fading symptoms is a HUGE sign to me that this is not the best way to give me good health. I need nutrients. I need time. I need pure ingredients entering my body, not chemically made substances controlling it.
I have come to the thought that if I took this semester at home, online, and was able to use my own kitchen, my own markets and my own house to supply myself with the items I need to start this huge change in diet and lifestyle, than I should be able to move into my rental house this June to work full time all summer and continue college on campus. The thought here is, if I don't do this now, I will never do it all the way. I will never have the support inside a dorm with friends eating normal food, cooped up inside and stuck with campus food since I do not have a full kitchen on campus. There will be too much temptation with all the normal college kids, doing their normal things that maybe will look different for me. If I am at home, won't I be able to have less pressure to live on the spur of the moment? Will I not be pushed to settle for living in the present and not worrying if staying up late tonight will mess up tomorrow? Do not mistake my intentions, I would MUCH rather stay on campus than move back home for six months. I love college life and would love to stay there as much as possible, not to mention I love the job there soooooo much I cannot imagine being gone for six months from those kiddos! I don't want to be home while my friends are at school. This is not easy for me to do, but it is conerning that I trust God in whatever He lays out for me. I will be praying this week and see what happens. The school needs to know by next Friday. Wish me good heart!
The time for change has yet again come in my life. The change of my responsibility for my impact on the world around me. I am deleting my Facebook tonight or tomorrow morning, making sure people get to see my status letting them know. It just is not good. Yeah, there is a lot of good in the way it connects us all. I can easily get ahold of people, especially if I don’t have their number or they don’t answer. So, it mostly is there for me to be distracted, waste time, and feel the need to share many unessecary things on the internet. No more, say I! I will make a new one when I feel like it is just a small way to connect and nothing more. I want to put more time into my blog if I’m going to do anything online socially.